Hey everyone,
I thought it might be helpful for myself to create a BLOG. I am up early every morning and spend a lot of time reflecting and wasting time on the Internet looking at football, bowling and brains. I have always enjoyed learning new things and writing out my thoughts...so why not BLOG. I am starting this BLOG due to my health findings / Brain Tumor. I may write things that may look like am not taking things serious. However, I am as scared as any reasonable person would be after the shock of finding out you have a mass in your skull. Lets be real, my life is most everything I have dreamed about (without the room full of money and being geographically close to my family). My wife is everything I have desired from fun to be with to an excellent mother. I have two fantastic babies and my work is very satisfying. I will use this forum to share my thoughts of what it is like emotionally and update new information about the tumor without getting to graphic. I will try to not go more than a couple days at a time without Blogging. This is part of my therapy.
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I just spent 5 days with Tony and had a great time. He and Teresa are great host even under poor circumstances. We went to a Chrismas Party, bartended together, watched BNL in Charlotte, and hooped it up.
Aside from the sudden, short, and intense headaches he experiences, you wouldn't know of his ailment...okay, maybe there is a giant clound of concern everywhere you go, but when it's 70 degrees outside in December, who has time for that?
Tony, know that our prayers are with you and we all expect the best of outcomes!
Two years ago a girlfriend bought me a journal. I was waiting for something big to happen before I started writing in it. I started writing in it 2 weeks ago. Big things happen to families all the time. Sometimes they win the lottery, for us Tony gets a brain tumor. It's big. I have never once asked why this is happening to us. And I mean us. I feel like it's happening to our whole family. It has changed the way I go thru my days. It's obviously changing the way Kenny is going thru his days, he's praying now. And Mom....... she's visiting for a whole month. (Again Tony, thank you.) What I can't believe is that Tony and Teresa are getting thru the days. I can't even imagine. When Tony jokes and laughs on the phone, I can't even imagine. I feel positive that something bigger is coming from this. That when the surgery is over and
Tony has recovered, something bigger then the tumor is going to happen to my family.
I agree with Timora. However I believe it's happening 60% to Tony, 30% to Teresa, and 10% to everyone else. Maybe I should have warned everyone before saying that I agree with Timora...nobody needs anymore undue stress.
It's definately a time for all of us to reflect on our lives and our relationships with each other. I told Tony "I love you" for the first time that I can ever remember. It was on my mind for a week before I ever said it.
Too often I am too caught up in my life to focus on the things I value like family, freinds, and personal health. At least that's what I say to myself; and it's really bullshit. I just haven't made those things a priority outside of Cathy, Jordon, and Carly. Frankly because it's not the path of least resistance. It's easy living in Iowa, and I haven't made it a priority to spend more time with Mom, Tony, Timora, and Shea. A moment like this, which will pass, is a great opportunity to calibrate our lives to reflect our values.
I already have my PHD in misery, but this experience should count for continuing education credits.
Love to all,
Kenny
Did my husband just say that "our prayers are with you"? Secretely, i love that. I'm not sure if he is praying, but the entire Terrell clan is praying for this family so no worries on that end.
I have learned more about brain tumors this past year prior to finding out about Tony's and I could probably do Tony's surgery. I don't have 500 under my belt, so I'll leave that to Dr. Robertson. Tony has much to live for and so once the surgery and recovery are complete, I hope we continue blogging. This is my first official blog. It is pretty fun. Tony, we love you.
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